Friday, December 17, 2021

Hi Wilson !

I have a grandson.

By now most of you know that Wilson Reid Gilhooly was born on November 15th. to my daughter Emily and her husband Matt. Here Wilson is figuring out how to use eyeballs.

This is the first male baby and family member I have ever known. I have two younger sisters. Katy and I have two daughters. Then came wonderful Rowan our granddaughter. 

Now Wilson. 

A boy child with 25% of my DNA. What to make of him? Changing boy diapers is more complicated than changing girl diapers, I've discovered.

But is there anything I can teach him, in a grandfatherly sort of way, about being a man?

At 70, I suspect I am not going to have much of an influence on his life. I can't take him fishing. I really don't know how to do the outdoors. I could take him to church; though I'm not sure how impressive that would be to, say, a seven year old.

George Bean at St. John's Lynchburg once advertised me to Episcopal bishops as a "man's man". That was the first and only time I have ever been called a "man's man." (I supposed he was speaking in code to his colleagues, suggesting I wasn't gay, and so improving my employability in the early 80's.)

A family friend has said I am  "a good father for daughters." I worked my way through graduate school as a night watchman in a woman's dormitory. I served at two women's colleges as a Roman Catholic priest. Those were important moments. As an Episcopal priest I worked at the then all male Virginia Military Institute and Washington and Lee University, but those didn't make as much of an impression.

Maybe since even Kroger lists "gender fluid/non-binary" as survey categories, this shouldn't be a question.

But around the time Wilson was born Robert Bly died. I own a copy of his Iron John - A Book About Men. I had parishoners who went off into the woods and banged on drums. "I want men to be better fathers than their own fathers were," Bly wrote. His second wife was a Jungian therapist, and Bly, the poet, anti-war activist, constructed a "mythopoetic"  world of initiation and imitation which borrowed from the Grimm brothers.

My copy was a Christmas gift from the Rev. Nancy Tiederman in 1990 and was inscribed "to a dear male friend and sensitive fellow".

The same month Wilson was born Jane Campion's "The Power of the Dog" came to Netflix. The title is biblical; from Psalm 22, 21: "rescue my soul from the sword, my loneliness from the grip of the dog." The anti-hero among the dysfunctional men in the tale is Phil, the obvious dog from the title. Yet he too is so lonely. By now you have probably seen the movie and have your own analysis. If only he and they had better fathers than their own.

Maybe I will leave Wilson something. I could bequeath him my copy of Walt Whitman's  "Leaves of Grass", with the hope he will see what it means to be a bright romantic. "Why should I wish to see God better than this day? I see something of God each hour of the twenty-four, and each moment then, In the faces of men and women I see God, and in my own face in the glass, I find letters from God dropt in the street, and every one is signed by God's name." (Song of Myself #48)

I could give him my copy of my candidate for the Great American Novel, Moby DIck.  There WIlson would learn the force and beauty and horror of Old Testament America, the dark romanticism of biblical kings and bastard slaves. We are, says Ishmael, " a crew chiefly made up of mongrel renegades, and castaways, and cannibals. . . reckless and mediocre". We will chase Job's whale, the white whale, with our godly technology in hand, and be led by mad men to death.   An unlikely man is resurrected to tell all.

Though, for his first Christmas this year, I'm giving Wilson a "Paw Patrol" t-shirt. He'll look good in it. (Rowan loves that series. She likes Skye, but always imitates Marshall, who, whenever he tumbles over something in Adventure Bay, gets up and says with a sigh, "I'm okay".) Remember Wilson, "No job's too big, no pup's too small - Paw Patrol".  I'll have Rowan remind you.

For this Christmas, Wilson has given me these memories and this meditation. 

Thanks Emily and Matt. Thanks Wilson.






 

Wednesday, August 18, 2021

The End of The Sabbatical - Retirement Year Two

"For must not someone of us say something about God, about eternal life, about the majesty of grace in our sanctified being; must not someone of us speak of sin, the judgement and the mercy of God" - Karl Rahner

St. Peter's - Eagle Harbor, Michigan

My counselor thought I should take a sabbatical from organized religion. So I did.  

I had been "dis-appointed" by the performance of the Episcopal church and my friends at Good Shepherd as I headed out the door. (Which is a nice way of saying I was angry and depressed and feeling old.) So she said, "look, you've never been a big fan of the institution. If you were, you wouldn't have left the priesthood. So just take a sabbatical from all that and then see how you feel."

Given COVID, that wasn't too hard.  I wasn't a fan of ZOOM church. In 2020 there was no need for my old fashioned summer supply work at St.Peter's in Eagle Harbor. So for 18 months I was "spiritual without being religious." But in the spring of 2021 there was the usual letter from the senior warden lining up clergy for the season.

My heart was strangely warmed.

St Peter's has a funny, ad-hoc organization.
 

In 1945 the Protestant Episcopal Church restarted services in the Keweenaw in the Knights of Pythias school house in Eagle Harbor. The Very Rev. William Burritt, who was based in Calumet, began inviting clergy from other churches to take some of the Sunday services there during the summer. The worshipers wanted a church. The Norwegian Methodists in Calumet weren't using theirs. So, they traded it to Bishop Herman Page of the Diocese of Northern Michigan for a donated dollar.

Another dollar leased a lot in Eagle Harbor from the Calumet & Hecla Mining Co. The building was trucked to a little rise where Michigan #26 turns east along the harbor beach. St. Peter's-by-the-Sea would become a community chapel serving various faiths, with an Episcopal communion service at 9:00 am and an interdenominational service at 11:00 am.

So it is today. Lutherans and Episcopalians run the place using Episcopal and Lutheran clergy for the 9:00am BCP service. (The president of Finlandia College is a Lutheran pastor and he was up next this year.) A second worship service follows at 10:30 am using the UCC "New Century Hymnal" for the ritual. This one has hymns and an organist. There are about 15 people at each service, with a coffee hour in between. The Bishop visits once a year.

You're not so much appointed to St. Peter's as you audition. You don't so much apply for the job; you're recruited into it. Indy's Canon Sue Reid left for Seattle and her weeks there came open. Retired Reverends Rick Draper and Sherry Mattson thought I ought to succeed her. The folks liked me. I moved from one week in the season to two.


It's not hard work. Mostly its a vacation for Katy and I. (If you squint, Katy is in the middle of the photo below of Great Sand Bay.) Plus the dog. And sometimes our daughter. And her husband.


It's old fashioned. People of some means in the '50's with real leisure time scrounged up a couple of dollars (literally) and built a church. They kept it running. Maybe out of habit. Probably because of intertwined family histories. Perhaps a beautiful place just makes it easier to believe in God and calls for worship. A place where someone will collect wild flowers and put them in hammered copper vases every Sunday morning.

It's bottom up. Let's find someone to talk about God. Let's find someone to break bread and maybe bake something. We'll leave the basement hall open for the AA meeting. 

That's it. Forget the incense. Forget the funny clothes. Forget the complaints about colonialism in the hymnal and the undisciplined use of pronouns. Forget about every year's ambitious plan to remake a national church.

I have been "officially" made a priest twice in my life. So, I like Bishops; the servants of the servants of God. But I was trained in an era when your theological education insisted that you see that ministry began as pastoral care. Before there was an office, there was a function. 

You weren't assigned a position by the monarch. You weren't appointed to an office. You were called to meet a need. A community needs you to do, in some particular time and place, what you cannot not do.

"To the full extent of my power, because I am a priest, I wish from now on to be the first to become conscious of all that the world loves, pursues, and suffers; I want to be the first to seek, to sympathize, and to suffer; the first to open myself out and sacrifice myself - to become more widely human and more nobly of the earth than any of the world's servants - Teilhard de Chardin

Here are the keys. (They are in a bowl in the priest's cottage.) Open the church up. Gather the people. (St. Peter's has a church bell rescued from an old copper mine school that gets rung each Sunday.) Tell the story. (Tell the story of Jesus and tell the story of this place.) Break the bread. Feed the many. (The last few years the gospel assigned had me preaching on miraculous feedings from a few loaves and fishes.) All of us would like you to do that because we asked around and we think you would be good at that here.

The end of the sabbatical.

I will address a Lutheran adult forum in the fall on the topic of local politics. My thanks to an old campus ministry colleague for the invitation.  I was asked to take a summer Sunday service this year at Our Savior Lutheran. I would have loved to, and I really appreciated the pastor's invitation!  But I was already committed to take a couple of services at Eagle Harbor; services, which it turns out, were to mark the end of my sabbatical.


 

 

 

Tuesday, September 22, 2020

Shhh! Don't Wake the Mainline.


A recent AP News article noted that the 2020 election seemed to have passed by the mainline Protestant churches. “We don’t endorse or oppose a particular candidate, but we do try to uphold moral principles and values that are key to our faith,” said (Episcopal Presiding Bishop) Curry." 

How very 2016. 

Or 1856. This from the "Crusty Old Dean" Tom Ferguson

in 1856, the General Convention refused to say anything about the violence or about how slavery was tearing the country apart.  It issued the following statement: the Church has “nothing to do [with] party politics, with sectional disputes, with earthly distinctions, with the wealth, the splendor, and the ambition of the world.”

Would it have been okay to vote for Jefferson Davis? Many famous Episcopalians supported secession and slavery. Could we have opposed Chancellor Hitler by name? "If you tell a big enough lie and tell it frequently enough, it will be believed." Mussolini made Catholicism the official state religion.

True, the "mainline" has relatively so few members, that it is already largely politically irrelevant. (The AP also notes that the historic St. John's - Lafayette Square presidential photo op was the rare exception; it moved the Episcopal Church to outrage.) But how much worse does Donald Trump and the current incarnation of the Republican party have to be before what's left of the old Protestant church says "no". We all love to quote Bonhoeffer from "The Church and the Jewish Question". 

There are thus three possibilities for action that the church can take vis-à-vis the state: first (as we have said), questioning the state as to the legitimate state character of its actions, that is, making the state responsible for what it does. Second is service to the victims of the state's actions. The church has an unconditional obligation toward the victims of any societal order, even if they do not belong to the Christian community. "Let us work for the good of all." These are both ways in which the church, in its freedom, conducts itself in the interest of a free state. In times when the laws are changing (e.g. Gleichschaltung), the church may under no circumstances neglect either of these duties. The third possibility is not just to bind up the wounds of the victims beneath the wheel but to seize the wheel itself.
Then satisfied, we stop.

I know of one exception to this general rule; Nadia Bolz-Weber, aka the Sarcastic Lutheran. She has endorsed the Biden-Harris ticket. 

As a woman of faith I am supporting the Biden Harris ticket because I believe it is foundationally patriotic to do so. It is to say, I will hold this country’s feet to the fire until we finally resemble in reality what we have always claimed to be in theory. I will not abandon this country to those who would wrap their bigoted self-interest in the flag and call it “God’s will”.

Amen.

I understand why a fragile church made even more so by the pandemic  would want to avoid conflict, to exercise self-care, to husband its resources, to stay clean and safe. Even my limited experience with politics tells me it is a mess. You can ask me about it sometime.

 

But  I wouldn't want to wake you.

Friday, August 21, 2020

How's Retirement ? (One year)


 
How's retirement? Better or worse than it was at six months
 
Better! Turns out the timing of my retirement was pretty good. It was so nice of everybody to stop going to work at just about the same time I did.

 
 
- COVID 19 has become the story of the last six months of retirement. My relative inactivity in retirement has contrasted with Katy's hyper-activity at Food Finders during the same period. God bless her. The churches may have been closed, but Jesus was still out there.

 - Because of the corona virus the City Council President has learned WebEx (city), GoToMeeting (county), and ZOOM (everybody else). I have learned to set the computer in just the right way so that my old campaign posters show in the background over my left shoulder. Resolution # 6-20 - "A Resolution Waiving Certain Procedures and Formalities During (a) Disaster Emergency Pursuant to I.C. 10-15-3-17 and Authorizing the President of the Common Council To Act For and On Behalf Of the Council If Required" gave me the power of a god.

-  "ZOOM" Church? It feels funny. Institutional religion? Well, I don't seem to miss it as much as I thought I would. Which is probably a good thing, since it is hard to imagine what will remain of mainline Protestantism after the pandemic. Want worship? Click the link for the Washington National Cathedral. Need a sermon? Pick a podcast. One town, one church, one parson, will disappear like your local post office under Trump. The Hamilton parody that went viral on YouTube is in perfect, precocious Anglicana style.
But King George never came back. There is a plague destroying the poor. Black lives matter. The republic is run by a narcissist and the oligarchs. Do we need cute?
 
 
- Here's the place for cute. We have a new puppy; "Darby" (Derbyshire - Cavalier King Charles spaniels should have English names.) I love my wife, so I love our dog. (That's Copper Harbor, MI in the background.) We went to Eagle Harbor this summer, but I didn't have to work because St. Peter's was closed.
 

- I still babysit Rowan. Isn't she cute?


 

Tuesday, June 16, 2020

Wilting

Rev. - BBC - Season #1 Ep. 2 "Jesus is Awesome"







 

The Rev. Canon Jeremy Haselock is the retired vice-dean and and precentor of Norwich Cathedral. He is also a Chaplain to the Queen. (This introduction takes me to a level of Anglican esoterica from which I may never escape!)

Canon Haselock wrote in the Summer 2020 edition of The Anglican Digest :


" I adore our church. I see it wilting before my eyes, 
       failing to rise to the occasion, failing to realize there is an occasion to rise to,                 It has become obsessed with process, terrified by risk, incapable of hearing 
dissenting voices. It has become a bureaucracy . . . "

Wilting.

Canon Haselock is reflecting on the Church of England's response to covid-19 epidemic, but it also applies here. In spite of our attempts to resurrect the "Jesus movement", the Episcopal church is known more for our religious aesthetic and an emphasis on self-care. So, like museums, theaters, and gymnasiums, we are closed. 

I am embarrassed that we are non-essential. 

I agree, the church is not the building. But what if you wanted to go to a place made holy by decades of celebrated births, marriages, and deaths, a place consecrated much as the bread and wine is by, time after time after time, retelling the story and repeating the gestures of Jesus of Nazareth? What if you wanted to go there and pray for the plague to pass by your house, only to find that house locked up?

We have spent the last fifty years moving the Holy Eucharist to the center of the church's liturgical life. Did we mean that? If "Zoom" morning prayer and an on-line coffee hour is really sufficient to sustain a community, why open back up at all? Sell the building. Stay "virtual". Tell the clergy to go with "Webex" office hours. Let somebody else take homemade peach ice cream to a sheltered cancer patient.

The church could have redeemed itself by dramatically increasing the number of hours it opened its' food pantry, or hosted National Guard staffed mobile "pop-up pantries", as did the Church Women United here in town. The Episcopal church might have done that, if it hadn't earlier in the winter closed its pantry in search of a more "relational" model of helping the poor which unfortunately never materialized. Our local food bank moved an astonishing 990,000 lbs. of food out into a community where the April 4th. unemployment rate was up 7,748.3% from last year.

I grew up a Roman Catholic, regaled by largely apocryphal stories of priests rushing into burning buildings to save the Host, and inspired by the mostly true stories of Father Damien tending lepers and Mother Teresa feeding beggars. A website link to "Heart/Soul/Mind Yoga" is good. A prayer service on "Alexa" is handy. But isn't there somebody who sacrificed something for someone? 

Some churches will break now; will literally go broke. Our diocese has a large endowment, so it will probably just wilt. It will loan money to drooping congregations. College work is close to my heart. The Indiana University campus ministry sent out a letter looking to raise funds to cover a 55% reduction in its diocesan support, and recruiting new board members willing to work without interim leadership. That ministry will sag.

If you have never watched the BBC's Rev (Hulu, Prime, Britbox) with Tom Holland and Olivia Coleman, you have missed a fantastic satire of a particular church, a disappearing vocation, and a flagging institution which may not be long for this world. I wish the Rev. Adam Smallbone would have had a chance to deal with the pandemic. The response we picked cries out for parody.






 

Tuesday, May 19, 2020

The Rev. Peter Bunder Funeral Bulletin

What  did you do during your quarantine? My wife went off to work feeding the poor in 16 counties in north central Indiana. I decided to meditate on what would happen if, because my wife went off to feed the poor in 16 counties in north central Indiana, she brought the covid 19 virus home, and I died.

This is what I came up with; my funeral service bulletin. (Click on the content and it will get bigger.) My family was not particularly amused. As I do not  plan on dying tomorrow, I suspect there will be changes throughout the years. Some details will have to be filled in. (Should my daughters or their children read the lessons?) But on the whole, I am pleased with this forward looking memory. Here are some things that caught my eye.



I always loved that Mary Olson liturgical dance banner. I always thought Dr. Olson's story was an inspirational one. You have no idea how pleased with myself I was when I took Al Allen's Good Shepherd drawing and added a red door. Sharon Park's "mentoring community" was my gospel.



I hope she won't mind, but I would invite Bishop Cate lead the service. We were not close personal friends, but she was my bishop for twenty years and, with Tom Wood, a great benefactor of campus ministry. Credit is due her. You can thank the University of Toronto/University of St. Michael's College for the quotes on the inside left page. It was a great place to do theology. Some of you may remember when priests studied theology.



I never warmed to our standard liturgical expressions. I would like to thank Mike Bloy and John Van Brederode for showing me a way through the several pretensions of the Episcopal church.

Try and write your own obituary sometime! The Basilian Fathers motto is from Ps. 119,66. "Teach me good judgment and knowledge: for I believe your commandments." (KJV). I may be  giving my family short shrift in here. (Can you hear the chorus of "what's new"?) They can tell their stories at my wake. Obviously, they will write the definitive version. FYI: I put my will and the CPG's "Getting Organized After Losing a Loved One" in my far right bottom desk  drawer :)



Thursday, April 23, 2020

NETFLIX "Prodigal Daughter"



This is a WONDERFUL episode. Makes me wish I was still doing "Friday School"!
NETFLIX "Easy" Prodigal Daughter (Season #2 Episode #6 2017) - IMDb - https://www.imdb.com/title/tt7695360/   
If only this were just a parody of our history instead of local and contemporary.
"Does no one else think this is insane?" Salvation through a food pantry :)

Friday, April 17, 2020

Safe Church



"On the whole, I do not find Christians outside of the catacombs sufficiently sensible of conditions. Does anyone have the foggiest idea what sort of power we so blithely invoke? Or, as I suspect, does no one believe a word of it? The churches are children playing on the floor with their chemistry sets, mixing up a batch of TNT to kill a Sunday morning. It is madness to wear ladies' straw hats and velvet hats to church; we should all be wearing crash helmets. Ushers should issue life preservers and signal flares; they should lash us to our pews. For the sleeping god may wake someday and take offense or the waking god may draw us out to whence we can never return" - Annie Dillard

I admire the mad Christians of the American south meeting Sundays in the middle of a plague. "Our faith requires it, our duty demands it, and no law or government can prohibit it." I admire the ultra-orthodox Jews of Brooklyn gathering for Passover in the middle of a pandemic. "The Torah protects us and saves us."

Most of us belong to non-essential churches. 

In spite of our attempts to resurrect the "Jesus movement" (does no one believe a word of it?), we are known more for our religious aesthetic and an emphasis on self-care. So, like museums, theaters, and gymnasiums, we are closed. The early catacomb Christians, writes Diarmaid Macculloch, familiar with sacrifice, were noteworthy in that they cared for the poor and buried the dead. We like to discuss the poor and the sick and the dead. Stay safe. 

I admire the mad Christians and the ultra-Orthodox. They still believe in the magic. Their assemblies pass judgement on a failed culture. We do not much value community. Community is part of their cult. We are isolated and cocooned now. We were isolated and cocooned then.  

Their dying stands in an odd, ideologically inverted solidarity with the "essential" poor, with the old and sick, those who must always live huddled in their shelters with diminished and imperfect resources. You can't buy toilet paper or cleaning products with SNAP/EBT. Two liters of soda is always cheaper than a quart of milk. Health tests and treatments are always hard to obtain.

I am embarrassed that we are non-essential.  

The sleeping god may awake some day and take offense. The waking god may draw us out to whence we can never return.




Wednesday, March 25, 2020

I Saw Jesus Yesterday


I saw Jesus yesterday. The churches are closed, but there he was.

Taking a little break from the hospitals in Italy, I guess. Maybe on his way back from taking Don Giuseppe Berardelli to heaven.

Not the sentimental Jesus, the high tech Jesus, but the real guy. He was in the rain outside an urban elementary school while cars lined up along Ball St., wove back into the school parking lot, then out on to 13th St., snaking up Greenbush almost to 18th. He was standing with Katy (I wish she'd worn gloves) and her worn out warehouse people and the motliest group of volunteers ever handing out soggy cardboard boxes of food (food that's harder to get because many of the usual suppliers are canceling orders, either supplying retailers hit by hoarding or holding out for higher prices) to the regular needy and the new needy and sometimes the greedy. I think he appreciated their sacrifice. He loves the poor, the sick.

He didn't stay long. But since the churches are closed, he had to go somewhere.

Thursday, February 13, 2020

How's Retirement ? (Six Months)




"How's your retirement going?" If you have bumped into me somewhere recently, you probably began our conversation that way. Either that, or you told me how much you loved Rowan Grace Gilhooly's pictures on my Facebook page. (This, of course, relates directly to "how's retirement going" !)

Okay, maybe you were just being polite.

But it has happened often enough that I sometimes wish I had an 8 x 11 hand-out I could share. Consider this post that. 

 -  I am glad you asked. Really. This is a big deal for me. I would love to be nonchalant about it, but after 40+ years on the job, I am still working on my new rhythm.

-  I was disappointed by the performance of the Episcopal church as I headed out the door. I know institutions can't love you, but I would have thought that my 34 years there might have earned me a little more respect. I wish Good Shepherd had been allowed to grow into and through the promised search process.

- It is good to have a hobby when you retire. Or a part time job. Or both.  I can now go to all of those meetings the President of the West Lafayette City Council used to skip because I had a day job. Everyone seems happy enough to have me around. There are sometimes free lunches.

- You get a new sense of, a new appreciation for, your family. You have more time. I trail my spouse to more of her Food Finder events (and her class) and can admire how well she does a very difficult job. Rowan is bright and funny and pretty, which makes us remember how bright and funny and pretty is her mother Emily. Molly's New Year's Day open house was a mashup of Polish neighbors, old friends from here, and millennial artists and musicians. Cool.

- My retirement has inspired Katy to firm up her retirement plans. (It is exhausting to raise millions of dollars every year.)  My wife is a Purdue "Subject Matter Expert" in non-profit management teaching in the COM department. This could become part of her exit strategy from Food Finders.  

- We're attending (sporadically) Our Savior Lutheran now. Given the church's decades long connection to Sonya Margerum, it feels vaguely like the West Lafayette Democratic party at prayer. It is very comfortable. Pastor Randy Schroeder, their recent call, is down to earth. I had He Qi prints in my office for years. They have He Qi prints on the walls. Our Savior reminds me of the catholic church I grew up in 40+ years ago.


Monday, October 21, 2019

Katy's Speech at My Retirement Party :)


When Peter’s colleague Charlie Mason retired from his church in Muncie his wife, a trained soprano, sang a song at his retirement party.  Don’t panic- I’m not going to sing! But if I were going to sing a song for you, Peter, it would be Gladys Knight’s You’re the Best Thing that ever happened to me.

With Peter’s retirement from active ministry, I want to share a few highlights of his impressive career. Because he’s retiring from campus ministry there are only two people who were at Good Shepherd when Peter arrived me and Ruth Dowden, who just turned 99.
I think you all know that Peter started his career as a Roman Catholic Priest. After getting a Masters of Divinity at the University of Toronto he was ordained by a liberal catholic bishop, Walter Sullivan, in Virginia. 
In 1980 about the time the Roman Catholic Church took a right turn, following the selection of Pope John Paul II, Peter began to question whether he wanted to remain a Catholic Priest. He was mentored by a priest at Sweet Briar College named Mike Bloy who was Episcopalian. About the same time, he befriended a college senior from Arkansas who was taking a break from boyfriends to ensure that she graduated on time. Peter will tell you this friendship had nothing to do with his decision to leave the Catholic Church! At my retirement party I’ll tell you the real story!

After leaving the Catholic church and retooling at an Episcopal Seminary for one year. He was offered a job at a wealthy Episcopal church in Rochester NY, but turned it down because he wanted to return to the South.  We didn’t know it at the time but this was one of a string of good jobs Peter would turn down in his career. The perfect offer came within a month. A chance to return to beautiful Virginia and serve as a college chaplain at Robert E. Lee memorial Episcopal church. After the riots in Charlottesville this church changed its name back to the original name Grace Episcopal.

Four years later Peter wanted to try a Big Ten University Chaplaincy and I reluctantly agreed to move to Indiana for 3 years.  We moved to West Lafayette, bought a house on Northwestern Avenue, I found a job at Purdue and we had our first baby, Molly and then 3 years later our second baby, Emily. Like many of you in this room, we always intended to move someplace prettier than West Lafayette, someplace with mountains or lakes or an ocean. But “community” got in the way.

Over the decades Peter had job offers across the US, we almost moved to Alabama, St. Louis, North Carolina, Maryland, and Hattiesburg MS.  Hattiesburg was the heartbreaker for Peter. At the time he got this offer his “church” was the basement of a rented house on Hayes Street. Hattiesburg had a gorgeous church building lots of Episcopalians and it was both a parish and a campus ministry. That time it was hard to STAY.

Each time Peter received a job offer we thought we’d move but, since we weren’t unhappy we looked hard at the church, could they handle his liberal sermons?  As those of you from Good Shepherd know most of Peter’s sermons share the same theme, if you want to go to heaven grab a poor person and hang on. This isn’t super popular in wealthy suburbs full of gated communities.  We looked at the public schools, do the people in the church send their kids to the public schools? In Hattiesburg they recommended a boarding school for our 10-year-old that was only 2 hours away! We had Westside 4 blocks from our house?! We asked ourselves if I would be able to find meaningful work without a long commute?What we learned on all those job interview trips was what a rare and wonderful situation we had in West Lafayette. We had a progressive church, a stable diocese that paid well, great public schools, a good house and I had a job I liked and could walk to work.

So time after time Peter chose to STAY! Choosing to stay here and work to improve our church and community. Peter did great things for Good Shepherd like moving the church to its own church building, making it both a parish and a Campus Ministry. He also worked hard to make our neighborhood strong finally securing a land use plan and historic review board for the New Chauncey Neighborhood.He worked hard at something else, making it look easy to STAY, Easy to run a church, and be a college chaplain and serve on City Council. 

He became a priest to work for social justice and a college chaplain to shine light on issues of social justice for students, faculty, and the institution. That focus never changed.   
·      When we first arrived in WL he presided at an evening service for gay people who were not welcome to take communion in other churches because everyone was so worried about AIDs
·      Also in the 80s he worked with Hillel to help Jewish people get out of Russia.
·      He advocated to have our diocese divest of stocks that benefitted apartheid in South Africa
·      He was always a strong advocate for gay rights and this led to a partnership with Purdue Convocations in 2013 that brought Bishop Gene Robinson, the first gay Bishop in the Episcopal Church to Good Shepherd and Purdue. I was proud that he got called out for this by a conservative evangelical pastor in the Journal and Courier
·       
        More recently he has become a champion for the food insecure and given both time and money to FF He’s marched to end gun violence, attended the woman’s march, carried petitions to raise school taxes and renovate the High School, and supported so many other causes that I can’t name them all.
I’m proud of him for never backing down on an issue no matter how uncomfortable it was to stand up for it.

At the same time that he was supporting important causes he was also providing and safe and inviting environment to students who were trying to find themselves/ “try on” a new religion or a new version of the religion they had grown up with.  Peter helped and counseled LGBTQ students before we used those initials. It was not always ok to be gay at Purdue. He helped kids who were from hometowns that were smaller than their Purdue residence hall find their way at Purdue. He helped students who were failing, he helped students who were awkward, he helped lonely students that had accents that made them hard to understand. He helped students with relationship problems. He helped students who felt oppressed by religion.

Two weeks ago a lot of former Good Shepherd students travelled long distances to attend Peter’s final service at Good Shepherd.  Many who couldn’t attend wrote letters and I was struck by the fact that they all said essentially the same thing, you changed my life and made my years at Purdue so much better.  

And how many weddings have you done?

So Peter, at the end of your church career I want to say in front of our friends and family, thank you for STAYING. Thank you for the impressive job you have done in building Good Shepherd, making our neighborhood and city better, giving our girls the opportunity to walk to school for 13 years, and for making career choices that gave me the opportunity to build my own career.
These days we admire those who pass through and move on to build ever more impressive careers. I want to honor and thank those who have STAYED and made this community a place where people want to STAY. I love you.   Cheers!

Sunday, October 20, 2019

Final Sermon 8/4/19 - Video

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Friday, October 11, 2019

Purdue Exponent Article

A Final Address


A  Final  Address

4 August 2019


“… and I applied my mind to search and investigate in wisdom all things that are done under the sun”
- Ecclesiastes 1:13 (Proper 13 – Year C)

Every year for thirty-four years I have begun the academic year with an opening address that explains why we are here; why we have been here at Purdue since 1956. We’re not quite at the beginning of the “fall” semester, but I thought I would do this sermon one last time. It is my valedictory.

We begin, as always, with a paraphrase of Søren Kierkegaard. (I’m going to put the original quote in the on-line version of this sermon.1) Kierkegaard carried out a relentless verbal attack on the Lutheran state church in Denmark, even though His older brother Peter was later to become a bishop in that same state church.

He complained that each Sunday the citizens of Copenhagen, dressed in their finest, would come into church and take the seats they had rented as though they were attending the theater. Then as they went from church to home, they would comment on the quality of the music associated with the performance, critique the day’s liturgical arts, the minister’s message, and perhaps his delivery of his lines.
It was as though the speaker was an actor.

Kierkegaard moved the religious professional from center stage. He argued that the priest was merely a minor player, sitting in the wings, prompting, giving a word to the real actors, those who were sitting in the pews. They were called to act out the gospel on those stages where they lived and worked. God, said Kierkegaard, was the critical theatergoer. God was the theatergoer. The congregation is the actor.

That is the point of a ministry in higher education, “the solemn charm of the art”. How do we teach each successive generation to give flesh to the Word on the stage of the world? The endless dilemma of how the Word is to be brought into the world is always at hand.

It is a missionary work.

It is different, not better, than the usual work of our churches. Parishes, parochial organizations, as ordinarily conceived and executed, focus on maintenance and attendance. Listen to how much better the new organ sounds. Our Sunday school has swollen. See all the people here in the pews. We have grown the staff. We have built a home. We have arrived.

All of these are good things.


But our job is to carve out a visible presence in a place that is NOT the church’s own. It is a missionary work.

It is an uncomfortable place. It is an uncertain life. Good Shepherd has lived in five buildings; house, church, center, house, church. I have done ministry from three of them under three Bishops. It is an uncomfortable place. It is an uncertain life.

It is a missionary work with a peculiar language.

It is about the journey.

Parishes speak of arrival. You came here to start a job. You joined the choir. You bought a new house. Then there is the arrival of the baby. The babies. “Family” is the metaphor.

Here we are all going somewhere else. The image of the pilgrimage is a powerful one. We are between homes. “Peers” become friends. “Friends” make truth.

It is about the work.

There is no “academic village”. We don’t have a home. We live above the store. We sleep in the office. We eat at the plant.

Our calendar is not Julian nor Gregorian but “Purduean”. Fall begins in August. Our relationships are contractual. Self-worth depends on the utility of our field, and our achievements within that field. No one on any campus has sufficient moral credibility to proclaim what the better life might be other than the security provide by a good income. The campus as moral inspiration is a nostalgic vestige2.

It is about an experiment in community.

Parishes are a dependable source of consolation, which enjoy a certain discipline in organization. They have a history.

Here, each year is a Nativity. Can we build a mentoring community, a sacramental community in this generation?  Can we then repeat the experiment?

Can we combine the emerging truth of the young adult, with the example and encouragement of a mentor, and ground both in an ideologically compatible social group3?  Or in the language of an apostle, “can scribes trained for the kingdom bring out of their storeroom the best of the new and the old”? (Mt. 15:32)  Can there be a new home? Can there be a new home, a new polity, and a new collective identity?
 
If this is a missionary work, then who are the natives?

The Students.

Students as they look for love and work.

Students as they continue to mimic their parents religion. Students as they take a hiatus from organized religion. Students as they search, either accidentally or intentionally, for new or renewed religious languages. Most of our church language is a puzzle. “Episcopal”? “Diocese?”

Students as they search for any coherent language around identity, intimacy, and mortality; birth and copulation and death. “I’ll be the missionary”, writes T.S. Eliot. “… all the facts when you get to brass tacks, birth and copulation and death, birth and copulation and death, birth and copulation and death.4”   Who am I? Am I lovable? What will happen when I fail? When I am broken?

The Faculty and The Staff.

We provide pastoral care. We care for those who work in the educational industry. There is no middle class in higher education any longer. Our members here have often been migrant workers, without place or power. Post-docs, adjuncts are on short- term contracts, with no hope of tenure. Staff positions are reduced or outsourced. Other academics are demoralized by their lack of influence on the business of higher education and its managers.

We prophesy. The successful may see themselves as self-employed entrepreneurs above the churn below. Perhaps most believers are eager for a separate spiritual life, one apart from the corporation for which they work. We challenge these woman and men to say how it is their faith affects their work. How they research or teach mimes their values to the university. You don’t have to say a word. Every syllabus is a creed. We say there must be more to this than a contractual obligation to transfer a skill set. The core of teaching is that the teacher lets their disciples take part in their life, and thus grasps the mystery of their life’s work5.

The University and The Church.

We work with the corporate person that is the university, to whom we are usually invisible, as it proclaims to society’s next generation what is valuable. Is it only the security that can be achieved by a high-paying job? So it seems. Are there any higher obligations a student might have to the world beyond the campus?

In 1884 a friend told Cornell’s Andrew White that he doubted that any of Cornell’s graduates could be elected to office in an America that so distrusted expertise. White responded, “nobody expects to get a majority of the men (sic) educated as I propose into office at first, but if we only had plenty of them to stand outside and fire into the people, and especially into those in office, they would certainly be obliged, sooner or later, to surrender.6” If only . . .

We work with the body that is the church, which looks at us with both suspicion and lust, so that it may better know the wideness of the world into which the gospel is to be taken and within which it is to be preached; the world outside its aesthetic, its linguistic bubble.

In the turbulent 60’s then Presiding Bishop John Hines, a heroic figure, wrote:

 “Against even the worst of possibilities, must be set the inescapable obligation of Christians, that the Body of Christ must be prepared to offer itself up for the sake of the healing and the solidarity of the whole human family, whatever its religious or racial identities. Especially must the Body of Christ risk its own life in bearing and sharing the burdens of those who are being exploited, humiliated, and disinherited!”#7

Campus ministers applauded. Hines forever changed the Church’s definition of “domestic mission” to “social engagement”.

And Hines wrote this:

“I did say, and I still conclude, that ministry in higher education is the last, best hope of the Episcopal Church in our time. I believe that because I believe that the university and college chaplaincy is the most difficult, and the most rewarding, of the responsibilities of this Church. Nowhere else, in comparable fashion, is the clear presentation and the effective interpretation of the Christian gospel more likely to bear fruit than on the college campus, where ideas in conflict and embattled Truth attempt to capture the best minds of this generation. Nowhere else is the Christian faith as likely to be seriously challenged – or as gratefully received.”

At the same time money for higher education ministries was cut from the national church budget. (Hines was also considered, unfairly, the chief cause of the church’s shrinking population and the loss of confidence in its national structure.) In my colleague Sam Portaro’s excellent phrase, campus ministry was “dis-appointed”. #8   Good Shepherd left its church building behind and moved into the Wesley Foundation.

That irony continues to dominate campus ministry’s life in our evolving church.

Like St. Paul, we mark out the grace to be found in the transition of the ages.

To the fearful and the anxious, to those on pilgrimage, we proclaim God’s loving, faithful word. We proclaim it to those often never exposed to the vitality and the richness of that word, particularly as it is expressed in the Anglican tradition.

We preach the Incarnation.

We proclaim God’s prophetic and righteous word to those so satisfied with their lives that they seem to have no need of God’s mercy and forgiveness.

We preach the Cross.

We proclaim God’s life giving and animating word to individuals and institutions, to personalities and corporate persons. We proclaim love and friendship to each one. We proclaim community to all.

We preach the Pentecost.

Finally, the next year or so will resemble, I think, Good Shepherd’s experiences between 2004-2005. Then, we moved from the Hayes St. house and Good Shepherd Chapel to Meridian St. and Good Shepherd Church. In November 2004 Steve Shook jumped out of his Audi and tried to sell me this building. In February 2005 the diocesan approved buying the Frist Church of Christ Scientist. Thanks Steve Fales. On March 30 2005 we closed on the property. Thanks Tom Wood. On May 1 2005 we moved in and held our first service. Thanks to so many of you. On September 18, 2005 Bishop Waynick dedicated the church. Thanks Bishop Cate.

Then, you switched buildings. Now, you switch priests. August 4, 2019 was Father Peter Bunder’s last Sunday, and then . . . . . . .

Let me predict that the new person you select will be younger, sleeker, and far more pious. I bet you buy new vestments. They will stay less than 34 years.

But they cannot think university work more important than I have thought it. All the more important because college, and then grad school, made me very much who I am today.

They will not have had Ted Jones for their bishop. Ted married a co-ed. You can’t do that anymore. Ted and Anne were the definition of grace. They cannot have the same commitment to the community outside these doors I have had, an involvement I thank you and Peder Berdahl for facilitating. (That’s a good story. Mayor Jan Mills asked me to run for city council. I called the diocesan office to ask if I could run for city council. Bishop Cate was on sabbatical. Peder Berdahl, then Canon to the ordinary, said I guess so - just don’t put any campaign signs on the church lawn!)

They will not have been married to Katy O’Malley; who, as it has happened, is more important to this larger community than I am. Katy left beautiful Lexington, VA and swallowed all the ugly that came with mid-north central Indiana to let me be my own boss and get a corner office with not one, but two, windows. I love you Katy. I couldn’t have done it without you. Thank you. Thanks too to Molly and Emily who kept me “cooler” longer than I had any right to be. Molly, thank you for “Friday School”. Emily, who can forget our “Drink Beer, Make Love? Be Episcopalian!”
t-shirt? I hope you both liked growing up here.

There are too many people to note as I close. Each gave me, and all of us, some special joy. Let me single out Ruth Dowden who was on that search committee in 1984/85 that called me here, and is still around to evaluate what sort of choice I turned out to be. I did well here, I think. This career, as I said in January in my annual chaplain’s report, has been a privilege. I leave, happily, with a sense of satisfaction, confidence. To quote Winnie the Pooh, how lucky I am having something that makes saying goodbye so hard.

God bless you.

Amen











NOTES
#1 What goes on between the speaker and the hearer in a genuine edifying discourse? It is so on the stage, as you know well enough, that someone sits and prompts by whispers; [he is hidden;] he is the inconspicuous one; he is and wishes to be overlooked. But then there is another, he strides out prominently, he draws every eye to himself. For that reason he has been given his name, that is: actor. He impersonates a distinct individual. In the skillful sense of this illusionary art, each word becomes true when embodied in him, true through him—and yet he is told what he shall say by the hidden one that sits and whispers. No one is so foolish as to regard the prompter as more important than the actor.
Now forget this light talk about art. Alas, in regard to things spiritual, the foolishness of many is this, that they in the secular sense look upon the speaker as an actor, and the listeners as theatergoers who are to pass judgment upon the artist. But the speaker is not the actor—not in the remotest sense. No, the speaker is the prompter. There are no mere theatergoers present, for each listener will be looking into his own heart. The stage is eternity, and the listener, if he is the true listener (and if he is not, he is at fault) stands before God during the talk. The prompter whispers to the actor what he is to say, but the actor's repetition of it is the main concern—is the solemn charm of the art. The speaker whispers the word to the listeners. But the main concern is earnestness: that the listeners by themselves, with themselves, and to themselves, in the silence before God, may speak with the help of this address.
The address is not given for the speaker's sake, in order that men may praise or blame him. The listener's repetition of it is what is aimed at. If the speaker has the responsibility for what he whispers, then the listener has an equally great responsibility not to fail short in his task. In the theater, the play is staged before an audience who are called theatergoers; but at the devotional address, God himself is present. In the most earnest sense, God is the critical theatergoer, who looks on to see how the lines are spoken and how they are listened to: hence here the customary audience is wanting. The speaker is then the prompter, and the listener stands openly before God. The listener ... is the actor, who in all truth acts before God.
—Søren Kierkegaard, Purity of Heart, pp. 180-81 (SV XI114-15); reprinted in Parables of Kierkegaard, Thomas C. Oden, ed.
#2 “Moral Dimensions of University Economies” – William M. Chace  President Emory University Emory Magazine Summer 1998
#3 p.89 Sharon Parks The Critical Years: Young Adults and the Search for Meaning, Faith, and Commitment
#4 FRAGMENT OF AN AGON – T.S. Eliot
DRAMATIS PERSONAE: SWEENEY. WAUCHOPE. HORSFALL. KLIPSTEIN. KRUMPACKER. SWARTS. SNOW. DORIS. DUSTY.
(All PRESET IN SCENE)

SWEENEY: ....................I’ll carry you off
To a cannibal isle.

DORIS: You’ll be the cannibal!

SWEENEY:
You’ll be the missionary!
You’ll be my little seven stone missionary!
I’ll gobble you up. I’ll be the cannibal.

DORIS: You’ll carry me off?
To a cannibal isle?

SWEENEY: I’ll be the cannibal.

DORIS: ....................I’ll be the missionary.
I’ll convert you!

SWEENEY: ....................I’ll convert you!
Into a stew.
A nice little, white little, missionary stew.

DORIS: You wouldn’t eat me!

SWEENEY: ....................Yes I’d eat you!
In a nice little, white little, soft little, tender little,
Juicy little, right little, missionary stew.
You see this egg
You see this egg
Well that’s life on a crocodile isle.
There’s no telephones
There’s no gramophones
There’s no motor cars
No two-seaters, no six-seaters,
No Citroën, no Rolls-Royce.
Nothing to eat but the fruit as it grows.
Nothing to see but the palmtrees one way
And the sea the other way,
Nothing to hear but the sound of the surf.
Nothing at all but three things

DORIS: ....................What things?

SWEENEY: Birth, and copulation, and death.
That’s all, that’s all, that’s all, that’s all,
Birth, and copulation, and death.

DORIS: I’d be bored.

SWEENEY: ....................You’d be bored.
Birth, and copulation, and death.

DORIS: I’d be bored.

SWEENEY: ....................You’d be bored.
Birth, and copulation, and death.
That’s all the facts when you come to brass tacks:
Birth, and copulation, and death.
I’ve been born, and once is enough.
You dont remember, but I remember,
Once is enough.

#5 p.102 Parker Palmer To Know As We Are Known: A Spirituality of Education
#6 p.85 Laurence R. Veysey The Emergence of the American University.
#7 https://episcopalarchives.org/church-awakens/exhibits/show/leadership/clergy/hines
#8 p.  Portaro/Pelosi Inquiring Minds and Discerning Heart: Vocation and Ministry With Young Adults on Campus.